Untrue

desire

• "I can't tell you what it meant to me, to be desired" — as if reading from a script written by every woman before her.

  UNT-001

• They vetted candidates, met them, auditioned them. Most were happily partnered and wanted sex — not exit strategies or new husbands.

  UNT-003

embodiment

• "I want (this sounds shallow) a big cock, stamina, knowledge of female anatomy, and discretion." She names desire, then apologizes for naming it.

  UNT-015

• "I finally decided that I deserved to have my needs met." Flat, unadorned — a sentence years in the making.

  UNT-006

shame

• "You're a secret when you love someone who's married. You don't matter, and you're under a shroud of secrecy and shame."

  UNT-002

• "I had the voice in my head saying, This is wrong and you know it." She cried. Paul withdrew. Two years later, she still regretted.

  UNT-008